Love is enough

So here I am, once again. I have been guided to make fearless self inventory of myself, tonight. It's amazing how God/dess can give you clarity and yet be such a joker all at once. I couldn't stop laughing non stop for about an hour. It was just one thing after the other. <3

A few nights ago I was reflecting on the amazing relationship Kiye and I had. I thought of how I transformed...the sacredness of what we shared and the times I was with him and I wondered what it would be like if he was gone. I thought of the moments where I was just happy to be with him. I remember hoping that I would never look back with regret but always be grateful for the experience. Some people don't even know love like that exists or is possible. It was so much more than a fairy book love. And I lived it to it's fullest. It will always be a special gift that was given to me. Even if I say these words, I know no one else can know it like we knew it. So recently it got me to thinking, "How was I able to let it go and what for?"

I remember why I did originally. There are plenty of reasons but it finally came down to the fact that I knew it was not in the best interest for him or for me. This is what my heart was telling me...

Tonight, I was watching a favorite show of mine and one of the main characters is speaking to her true love who has been brought back from the dead but now he is a monster - the conversation goes like this:

Andrew: Please, stop the pain.

Regina: How?

Andrew: Let me go...

Regina: I can't! I love you...

Andrew: Love can.

And then the pain becomes too much and he switches back into a monster and tries to attack her so she freezes him with her magic and through sobs turns him to dust. Then she finally says, "Goodbye, Andrew."

It hit home with me. The reason why and the reason how I could let him go was because I loved him...Because I loved us and I loved myself. It was because I loved - that I could let him go. Only love could be strong enough to help me to let go of someone I loved that dearly and who meant that very much to me. Love is pretty amazing, I'm telling you. 

It's weird when I lose someone who passes away...I usually get a sense of peace about them. But that's just because of my connection with the spirit realm. When I let go of someone - it's a different kind of pain. Not worse, just different. My heart is still raw from it and shy to open as much. And so I am gentle with it and I remind myself that everyone has to have their time to heal. It sometimes takes a while longer than expected. No matter how you've lost someone, you need your space to be able to grieve and to heal and then you let them go because love can. I had to be able to let a lot of people go so that I can keep living. If I didn't, I would be haunted by them like ghosts in my heart.

Tonight, as I laid in the tub I was reminded that I'm not my accomplishments, my items or my plans in life. I'm not my job and I'm not my friends. That's only extensions of "me" but who I really am goes beyond my body or mind. I remembered saying, "Being here is the biggest accomplishment of all. And that's something you can do without 'trying' to." And that's right, I'm still here. Those reading this, we all are. Let's stop for just a second....Be still...breathe deeply....look around...And remember our hearts in our chest that beat for us. Let's remember the sensation of this moment. Let's know it. Feel it. Be it. It's absolutely perfect. Nothing to do, nothing to be but be here and be me. I love you - drink those delicious words in as you read this. 

I love this life, full of dance and brethren. Art has been such a doorway for my growth. 

I ask the Universe...NO! The Multiverse to open the endless doors of possibilities for this one door that is just the most beautiful and divine and healing and best choice of anything of a job for me - so I can be exactly where I am supposed to be doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing and I will completely trust this experience for just that. All I ask is that I know for certain, that the opportunity has arrived, please. And as I say that I think I really do know where I am supposed to be. Thank-you! :] <3 <3 <3 Time to talk to Aymee again. 

Stepping out on faith.

Just think on this, meditate on this: "What you seek is seeking you."-Rumi

You are free. 

LOVE,

Elizabeth

Don't wait

Don't wait for greatness to be great.
Are you waiting for something? Are you wishing for something that you don't quite have, yet?
In the womb of our mother's, we mostly slept. We ate and we blinked our eyes...maybe we would kick. There wasn't much to do but that was because we were still growing...we need to be right where we were so we could grow strong and healthy. It was a pivotal part of our growth. If we had rushed out too soon...we wouldn't be strong enough or developed enough to survive.
So, if you're like me and the most adventure you get right now is while you are washing the dishes...don't despair. Put your all into those dishes...everything that happens before greatness is only prepping it for you but if you try to rush it then you won't be ready to survive it.
I rushed my awakening on myself and I was prematurely born into a reality that I couldn't understand yet. It's why I came back to the level that I am on now. Because I have more growing to be done on this level.
So while you're life may just feel like you're making the small kicks of a baby inside a womb...know that it is a pivotal part of your growth. The smaller things in life matter as much as the greater things...neither can truly exist without the other. Because when your time of greatness comes, you want to be ready for it.