I am going through a lot of changes right now. Truth is vulnerability, true authenticity has terrified me. I didn't even realize it until later I life. When 2011 happened, it was a breakdown/spiritual awakening like what happens to Brene Brown. I learned the importance of vulnerability & knowing I am worthy of love. That I am enough and I belong. My past, with my parents splitting and some of the bad fights that ensued unconsciously made me feel like I wasn't enough.
But I was 18 then & still had a lot to learn, I needed to become stronger...less naive.
Now I understand more than I ever have to live a truly wholehearted life I must be daringly vulnerable...which means to have the courage to be who I truly am with my whole heart. To know that I am worthy of love exactly as I am. I am enough. It means letting go of certainty and control of outcomes. Leaning into the discomfort. It means leaving a job which gives me no fulfillment but gives me some sense of certainty about my life.
It means showing you who I truly am without withholding out of fear that you won't like what you see.
