Return to Innocence

"Believe in something, not because it's the truth but because it makes you a better person to believe it." I believed in Kirene and I wanted to write that story. I broke down over my heart ache about Samuel ~ I screamed and asked the question "Why?!!!" Mother comforted me and touched my face. I realized that she knew what it felt like and didn't have the answers but she loved me - she wanted to comfort me, anyway. "I have to believe love and light prevails." There was no escaping the pain and I wanted to know why I would choose this for myself. I saw the white feather and it said it represented connection to the spirit and innocence, peace. I felt God there because of the love of my mother and because of the synchs such as, "There may be pain in the night but joy comes in the morning." Mother said this to me after I had been thinking about it earlier that day. And the "You are beautiful card" The next day mother and I talked about how things were changing in the Universe, we talked about the Indigo children and how there is a real new, world, a new paradigm. How a lot of us are wanting to live Heaven on Earth. We experienced energies in Pat's class but there is also something very important we learned in Mark's about connecting with the heart, fully accepting and loving all of who we are. I made a video about tapping more into my "light self" and holding a sacred space for this new paradigm - for heaven on earth. I got sick and fell into a bad mood. This morning I awoke after a long sleep and it was snowing outside. I clicked onto facebook and read an article about spiritual bypassing - it spoke much on what Mark had talked about. I felt torn, I agreed about spiritual bypassing taking place but I also knew that there was something to this vibration lifts and that they had great potency in my life, they weren't just for spiritual bypass. That there is an even more alive world! I want both, I don't want to spiritually bypass - I want a real connection with the heart and I want to bring heaven to earth. That is my wish. Then I turned on the computer and connected with a live chat from Kerli. They started talking about the tarot deck and how the arcana is from 0 to 22. The Fool to the Universe. And how the Fool was Kerli's favorite. She said there is talk about if the Fool is what one comes back to from the Universe - if that is wisdom. Being who they are without seeing if it's a good idea or not or what others will think. It's this innocence but it's not naivety at this point. It's choosing to believe in love because it makes you a better person. Kerli literally said that. I thought of the white feather and the white snow falling. I thought of the song, Enigma - Return to Innocence. "It's not the end, it's the return to yourself. The return to innocence." And then I remembered the picture that my dad posted on my facebook which I also saw that morning. http://sphotos-b.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash3/542082_395950200499374_1015738135_n.jpg Elizabeth Morgan The light shining on her makes me feel like she is witnessed by the Universe. She is unafraid to share her vulnerability - it feels like an authenitc call of the heart 3 hours ago via mobile · Like Elizabeth Morgan And it is so beautiful, there is an innocence to the wishing of her heart. Like blowing little pieces of a dandelion, a simple and childlike call. Yet it seems clear from the size of the dandelion that it is the loudest voice of this woman's heart and ...See More 2 hours ago via mobile · Edited · Like Elizabeth Morgan haha! didn't see she was in the air. That does change my interruption of the picture! 2 hours ago via mobile · Like Elizabeth Morgan It adds in some empowerment, she is pulled ever upward by the wishes of her heart, this innocence and authenticity makes her weightless - I feel something miraculous in action She is flying...Which is the wish of my heart...to fly. And the white feather also represent flight to me. This picture also represented innocence because of the use of the dandelion and the childlike feel to it.