Come, the doors of your heart are open ~

I have questioned many, many things and sometimes I've gotten really amazing answers.
One question that I've asked many times would be, "What is my path?"
I see not only that I have a great interest in all sorts of things but also that infinite possibilities lay before me and there truly isn't a right or wrong way to go about it. Some paths may be more self gratifying than others...some paths may make more people say, "good job!" & some may give me more security but these are not must's nor do they take away from life; for this life we are here to experience any and all that we may choose. I cannot say that one is better than the other, at this point in my life.
Where shall I go? What shall I do? I have a passion for many things...
At this point in my life, I have really been enjoying peace, clarity and groundedness as new experiences. I have been wanting to expand more on speaking my truth and sharing with my community.
Yet, there have been many times where I have considered living alone in the woods or some beautiful secluded life and living a peaceful life. Why not? Recently, someone said the very same thing. They had come to the realization that they would be limiting themselves if they didn't connect with others. For others enhance this life so much. It's true, I can truly experience myself through others. "Other's" are rich with unique perspectives. I have also found that there are no words for loving another...sharing gifts and receiving them.
I have been inspired by so many on the creative, spirit infused path that I am on and sometimes I will feel intimidated. How can I speak and share?
My spirit informs me that this question is needed, no more. I share my gifts from the heart and the rest comes naturally with practice. I heard this really great quote from a movie based around the art of cooking Ramen and the mother of the Sensei said to the student,“Sometimes too much technical training can get in the way. You cook with your head. Your head is full of noise. You must learn to cook from the quieter place deep inside of you. Each bowl of ramen you prepare is a gift to your customer. The food that you serve your customer becomes a part of them. It contains your spirit. That’s why your ramen must be an expression of pure love. A gift from your heart.” The student was silent for a moment and said, “I don’t know anything about love. Every time I feel it, it’s gone. It disappears. And all I have left is pain and sadness.” 
That's when the mother said, "“Begin by putting your tears into your broth.”
I thought of how creating anything, whether it be a yummy broth...whether it be a picture or a house...or a relationship - those words hold wisdom. The mind can be so noisy, to create from the heart...& even if one doesn't know love, one can always start with their tears. Right now, that is where I am starting...some tears and some laughter, all in one.
Come 

Into the light

"I'm still with you even when you're gone."
Faces of the the past appear, I see memories that I cherish. There was an unspoken promise between my brother and I...You know, the beginning of my life was sort of like that.
I've experienced what some have said will keep one from suffering - such a magical family and life growing up as a child & then a true love with Kiye. Why is it that I still suffer or ever have doubts? But it makes me think that it's a waste to be too consumed with not suffering. Rather, cultivating HEALTH. & usually health calls for a balanced life.
I can feel it, it'll be one year since I lost both of my brother's. It feels like when the family split up...I feel myself being changed by it, though it's sometimes through tears. There always seemed to be this unspoken promise between my brother and I - but, and I know this may sound strange...I feel freer. I really feel like this chapter in my life is ending. And all this grief is coming to the surface. Because, slowly but surely, I am stepping into the light. My heart is lifting and I am letting go of the things which hurt me in unhealthy ways.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c_TpBrDG21E

Spectacular Stars

I am astonished that we are not all outside everynight staring up and looking at the stars. We credit ourselves to be an advanced race and yet we can still feel boredom...There's no reason to feel bored...there's no reason to not just be in awe of existence. Except that maybe we run more on instincts than we realize. Even our brains, we use so very little of! If we start feeling bored - it may be a good idea to go out in nature, explore science...experience miracles. It can be small but we are truly these spectacular beings walking around and we don't even realize it. We are SO awesome and the more aware we become, the more evident it will be.