Into the light

"I'm still with you even when you're gone."
Faces of the the past appear, I see memories that I cherish. There was an unspoken promise between my brother and I...You know, the beginning of my life was sort of like that.
I've experienced what some have said will keep one from suffering - such a magical family and life growing up as a child & then a true love with Kiye. Why is it that I still suffer or ever have doubts? But it makes me think that it's a waste to be too consumed with not suffering. Rather, cultivating HEALTH. & usually health calls for a balanced life.
I can feel it, it'll be one year since I lost both of my brother's. It feels like when the family split up...I feel myself being changed by it, though it's sometimes through tears. There always seemed to be this unspoken promise between my brother and I - but, and I know this may sound strange...I feel freer. I really feel like this chapter in my life is ending. And all this grief is coming to the surface. Because, slowly but surely, I am stepping into the light. My heart is lifting and I am letting go of the things which hurt me in unhealthy ways.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c_TpBrDG21E