After my parent's divorce, I was lost in a chaos storm and I didn't know how to pick up the pieces. I began to go inward...even though after a time it became isolation - I was also asking a lot of existential and spiritual questions. Eventually it led to my spiritual dark-night-of-the-soul and transformation in 2011.
I can see the other realms and I can still feel them. But I chose to come back to this planet, to this time and place. I chose to ground myself here. I chose to *continue* living.
I want to ground deeply into my body, my life and to express myself with my actions everyday. I can take the wisdom from the magic I've cultivated to create.
True growth takes courage on my part. I am being asked to take responsibility. The confidence will come when I can truly accept all that I am and the power that is there.
I feel there is need for more confidence in myself. In the past I would've *tried* to make that happen all at once. Now, I believe I must be rigorously honest with myself and take action steps [even if small] everyday. I cannot tell myself it's not okay for me to be where I am today. I need to accept it and then go from there. Acceptance is the key to freedom. Discipline will be my ally.
I can ease up just a bit of pressure on myself, though. It isn't easy to do what I'm doing. It is possible though and joy lives now.
If you're living your life and it feels stuck...if there is a feeling that it will always be this way. That you'll always feel powerless, unloved, hopeless - don't despair. If you are alone - you can be found. If you are powerless - you can find yourself. If you are hopeless - a new dawn can rise. Sometimes it's found in the small victories. Those small victories grow and start tying together until you become altered, transformed.
There are Universes inside of us. My goal is for us to ground that experience here on Earth.
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