Saturday, January 26, 2013

Free to Struggle

"We're free to struggle, we're not struggling to be free." Wow, wow, wow...I think I just got a new perspective on all of this! I wanted to find a "better way" as I spoke in my earlier blog... The lesson I learn when I reach those depths of despair is that I am bankrupt when I close my heart to Love. I don't have to wait for the chaos storm. I am able to open my heart, right here and now. Maybe, that's been the whole point all along. Is it about letting love back in? What would happen if I surrendered completely to this love? "I have overcome death." Death has already been overcome...It's not about finding Heaven or True. It's here, it's now. Waking up is synonymous with being born. But waking up means becoming aware of something that is currently there. Wouldn't that be what an awakening is? Awareness of what is already here. I can awaken!!!! "I have overcome death,"...It's ringing in my head, over and over. It's a battle I don't have to fight because it's already been won. I think about the women who do natural, orgasmic births. They talk about how they can choose to move with the energy and that it naturally feels orgasmic but they could also let themselves slip into it being painful. If everything is energy than can we choose to let the pain become orgasmic, in a sense? What if every moment was a prayer? What if the energy that flowed through, we wouldn't close ourselves to? Let it flow ~ that is the pain that feels so wrong. Actually, sex teaches us fundamental things about life and ourselves. In that moment of pain where I finally surrender...It doesn't feel like I am surrendering out of choice but I am surrendering to the pain and frustration because I feel hopeless and it's too overwhelming. It feels like abuse. It feels like "it is against my will." I will meditate more one this! <3 Elizabeth
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  1. UnknownJanuary 29, 2013 at 4:55 AM

    I thought maybe you had accidentally used the word "orgasmic" instead of organic...but I checked it out and there truly is such a thing as Orgasmic Birth. I searched for it and found this site [http://orgasmicbirth.com/what-is-orgasmic-birth?page=4]. I have a friend who believes strongly in the dynamic connection of pain and pleasure. So I guess this would make sense just considering that reality.

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    1. ElizabethJanuary 30, 2013 at 5:55 AM

      http://m.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%253A%252F%252Fwww.youtube.com%252Fwatch%253Fv%253DnZtYCHASqNM%2526feature%253Dplayer_embedded&h=VAQGj6bJV&s=1
      This is a promote for a video about natural and orgasmic births. The reality of a birth being able to be orgasmic shifts the paradigm of it having to be painful. "It's very painful, just the way it is. It's not this flowery or beautiful experience!" I've always heard that and there is the age old reason that women felt this kind of pain as punishment. Inever believed it or many if the "that's just the way it is". I am not suggesting to mistake pain as pleasure for pain surely has it's very own feeling but that it might be possible, that if one moves with the energy in a certain natural way, it can be shifted to orgasmic. I will meditate on this idea more!

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  2. UnknownJanuary 29, 2013 at 5:07 AM

    I like the desired destination of "Freedom" invites us to enter the struggle, and to truly awaken, to take in the scenery of our journey. And coming back to the birth process, where something growing and hidden within finds a way out. There is much here to stimulate meditative introspection.

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