Shift in Perception.

There is a twist in my heart where at a certain age I had to grapple with certain realities of life which made me question my very understanding of reality and my relation to it...my identity.
That twist is the crack in my tectonic plates where great pressures rubbed together to create something new. Along the leylines and rivers of my soul...this twist is the source of who I am now...but it has changed so, so much over the years. For the longest time I was searching from healing from this grief and anger and hurt. I thought the twist was wrong and that it only knew darkness and pain. The truth is it is simply another perspective of life that I never had before and one that was difficult for me to grasp on my own at that age. Truth is, it's still hard to accept but I am not the fearful little girl I once was. Now, I KNOW my strength. I have seen it in action and I have much more faith in my ability from experience. 
I believe at the source of this twisted perception with which my hallucinations were born...there is deep wisdom. If only I can stop fearing myself and learn to accept my own fullness...a vulnerability I haven't come close to achieving yet...I will find a new level of realness and fulfilment.  That's my goal.