Enlightenment

I once longed for more from this world
I once longed to fly
To be able to manifest anything at the flick of a wrist
To live in a universe unfolding like magic
Which would satiate every creative need
I didn't understand why I couldn't have this
I believed I could have anything, I knew it in my core
I knew that there is more out there
That past, present, and future is mostly illusion
I sensed that all these things and more were possible, just like the miracles promised to us by Jesus
I had seen my own miracles
Yet it's all fools gold
All beautiful illusions to distract me
Now, I'm glad
I'm thankful I never got those things
I'm thankful I never found the one
I'm thankful I'm not yet famous and wildly successful in my career
I'm thankful my ego hasn't been blown up
I'm even thankful I got thrown off my ego trip from 2011 - the guru Godd illusion...that somehow the earth rotates around me and not the sun.
I'm thankful for another rock bottom
It's a gift
To not be given all that I wanted
A revelation worth more than gold, fame, fortune, magic of any kind has become apparent to me.
Everything else would've been a distraction, how lucky we are. How lucky I am...now it all makes sense why a universe that could be anything would unfold like this. 
It is always pointing to this truth which cannot be translated. 
Imagine, this world a simulation...i dare you to go to the edges of where you believe the simulation ends. Go, child, to the edge of the mountain top...it's right there on the edge where you are so close to passing the point of no return, lost forever, where it may pass through your awareness.
Some will find it sitting still, some will be truly lost...there is no rule on how to experience it.
Enlightenment can only be experienced in this forever now moment. The only thing that actually exists.