Brutal

It's happening again, the synchronicity is happening faster and more in depth than ever before.
First I play that game Sam wanted me to play...it showed me how every little choice shifted the balance...it was a choose my own adventure game. It showed me the shadow...it led me back to Carl Jung.
I had the conversation with my dad about Carl Jung and he mentioned his inner council. It awakened me to my own inner truth once again. I began recording my dreams. Kerli's entire album was on shadow work.
I saw the stink bug and Cesar kept saying it was my shadow...he was right.
Wynne and I cleared out the nursery...there was an accident there the next day.
Aymee and Sam made amends...things are shifting. The planets are moving.
We are in ever evolving timelines. I watched Bandersnatch...it spoke to my soul. Now Russian Doll...Emily, she is the key to the stars...the star Lyra...i got led to that from Emily of the Moon. Literally she has an aunt named Elizabeth. And it's Anne of Green Gables...Aymee's favorite story.
My loneliness...it's my ivory tower of loneliness...I'm safe there. It's scary how connected we all are.
Bed bugs
Stink bugs
Ants
Butterflies
Lady bugs
Dragonflies
🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋
Long lost lover...it's a comforting feeling. I felt it only for a moment. the desire to find that soul mate. It came from the stories I was reading? Or maybe the movies? Or maybe my friends or my brother? Or myself? That desire feels so dangerous now. Once upon a time it was a glorious feeling, beautiful even. I trusted it, I had no reason not to. I even experienced it on some level. Emily created Kirene. You know that, you've always known that.
Nearly a lifetime....being with Kirene for so many years changed my inner landscape. It made the outside world harder to live in.
I know what I was searching for...something to take the edge off from the brutal onslaught of emotions.