Change

My style? Does it represent me? It represents what I want out of life right now. Life became too heavy for me...so heavy that my knees were buckling underneath the weight of it all.
So I had to let my identity go and basically just choose the part of me that doesn't mind blending into a crowd.
It hurts to express those other parts of me. Truthfully, I'm so out of touch with them now that I don't connect like I once did. I see other people expressing themselves in ways that our loud and I would love to do that if I were someone else. If I were 'young again'. But I've worked hard to be respected by adults and it feels really good to be treated as an equal. I like how that feels.
Also, blending in is very easy on my psyche. It's like me going back to the girl I was when I was very young and I just didn't really care about fashion.
My style now says, "I am one of you living in the bubble." It's a happy little bubble...that world that some how still exists. Despite it's obvious flaws. The world we live in now scares the beejesus out of me. Lol
Everything changes.