A message

Okay, so it seems obvious that the universe is trying to convey a message to me. I really started noticing it yesterday. I had been having difficulty with a friend of mine and it made me want to pull back. She'd shared with me and it had left me feeling stung and I just simply didn't want to discuss it with her at all. So I didn't force myself to respond with answers to her questions but I did instead decide to respond with the best honesty I could. The truth was I really didn't know what to say and I asked her not to take that silence as rejection. But I would rather tell her that then pump out a fake answer.
She understood completely and said that she didn't feel a sense of rejection. She was happy that I was honest with her. When I meditated on the issue I got in response, "peace." That she was perfect the way she was and vice-versa. I didn't need to try to make the relationship anything other than what it was. By doing that there would be peace. So I released my need to control the situation and opened up to her as I just said before by telling her I honestly didn't have the words at the moment.
A few days later she tries calling me but I am unable to answer at the time. I find myself putting off calling her back because I still felt uncertain of what to say and I didn't want to pretend like nothing had happened, I also knew that would help. But then a thought popped into my mind of something a dear friend of mine had told me. It's not an exact quote but she told me that it is so important to talk things out with those you love because the more things you keep hidden from one another, the farther the two of you will be.
I was reading a wonderful book and it said that ironically those who stick around to fight with you [non physically or abusively] are the one's who really love you. Because they are willing to find mutual healing with you. When I read that I put down my book and without a second thought I called Skye. She was my friend, no matter how scary it was I wanted to work it out with her. So I called her and something she said to me also caught my attention. It was off topic from anything I've been discussing here but she had told me that she had decided to go ahead and take action about something rather than sitting around and not doing it. She said that she'd rather regret something after the action then spend her whole life regretting something she'd never done. It reminded me of something dad and I talked about. It's not exactly the same but someone who rarely takes action rarely gets the chance to live. Of course anything can be taken to extremes but all of us will make mistakes. The fastest way to learn to swim is just to get into the water and start tredding.
Anyway, so now I am watching this show and the main character is asking one of her guy friends this, "Would suppressing your emotions and not expressing them for the sake of someone you like...be doing the right thing?" And this was the guys response, "Right thing, my foot!" xP "What's that? That's the same thing as ignoring them." -"If the world comes into pieces tomorrow then you'd probably die first of regret. It's better to regret after you act, instead of regretting after you don't do anything. That's my philosophy."
It's funny because the two ideas are linking together. First suppressing your emotions or not expressing them for someone you care about and then regretting action not taken. Which when Skye was talking about it, it had nothing to do with that. It makes me feel like the universe is trying to get my attention about something. When I hear something repeated by different sources I start to listen because it seems that something is trying to get my attention.
I still don't know how I feel about all of it and I've learned now that if I don't fully understand then I'm not supposed to yet. Instead of trying to figure it out with my mind all at once. Because I'll usually grab a hold of something logically but it usually gets in the way of the real lesson. Now I am learning to be open and receptive with not just my mind but all of me.
Thank-you universe for the message, I will continue to listen.

Elizabeth