What if I had the mentality that anything could be overcome? Even if it doesn't go away - I could still thrive. Simply because I do wish to survive and to continue to improve.
You are loved unconditionally and unconditioned.
There was a time when I didn't want to die. I wanted to live on forever.
Then I realized that just like it's important for a story to begin, it's also important for a story to end. There is something just as beautiful in closure as there is in new beginnings.
And if one were to truly ascend in the body, would the old life they had not end, anyway? Form is finite and will come and go. It is only the . spirit that is truly immortal. This is what I've come to adopt as an idea.
In many ways, we die everyday of every second and we are reborn. Old skin being replaced by new, old perspectives being replaced or restored by new. We are not who we were yesterday. The only person that ever truly lives is in the exact moment, right now. When seen from this perspective, we realize we have already experienced death and rebirth - many, many times.
And in my heart I know, even when I closed the book after reading the final page of the final chapter...the story lives on. Whether in my heart or in another world. Its spirit is a timeless force.
What if death is a door?
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
True You
I want to talk about the possibility that who we think we are, are quite literally a multiple of entities. At least, the personality is. I have already come across the idea of an "inner council". Which is why a person can argue with themselves or have an almost completely personality depending on mood, situation or nothing at all.
There is also the idea that we all have guides which are real beings who have most likely incarnated on the Earth before but not always.
When I went through my awakening last year - every aspect of myself had a "voice". Different locations of my body had it's own consciousness. No longer did I see myself simply as Elizabeth but Elizabeth with many, many facets. Almost as if Elizabeth were a great ship and whoever spoke from my actual lips or thought my thoughts was just at the controls of the ship. This is the best metaphor. Since we are all one, anyway, this wasn't too shocking to believe that our guides and other aspects of ourselves are what make up what we call "I". Any person who has empathy has experienced feeling someone else's feeling as their own feelings. And to someone who can't tell the difference between their distinct own thoughts can easily mistake another entities words for their own. Because not only do you hear the beings thoughts but you feel what they feel and the energy behind it. This shouldn't make a person feel helpless or paranoid. I do believe beings can only speak to you through "portals" that you have open in your energy. Whatever frequency you are sending out is what you will be available to, for the most part. Because it is like you are tuning into a specific radio station. It doesn't mean other beings from different frequencies cannot contact you but it does make it that much more difficult - this is my speculation.
I believe there are beings whom are exactly WHO we are but they are part of our personality [which is again a huge ship with different passengers] and these beings are with us from the day we are born to the day we die. I also believe there are guides who are connected to use and do have an impact on our personality but they still are living on their own realms. I then believe that there are helpful beings that come to us as guides and it can feel like they are a part of us which is not completely inaccurate considering how energy works and the truth of existence but they are not planning to keep a connection in the way the other guides do.
This is all speculation of course and mostly from what I've picked up and from what I've experienced. I'd love to hear some other views.
Anyway, I've come to the realization that while my own fears and doubts may be present - other entities that feed off that energy will continually excite these fears and make them monumentally worse than they truly are.
I believe all aspects of one's personality and the guides are important and definitely should have a voice but it's so important to know who you TRULY are. Which is you spirit. For me, I always see an incredible light being. This being doesn't exactly talk and it what I believe to be my direct connection to spirit. Once you know who you truly are then you are able to make decisions that are truer and you are able to embody your own spirit more. This is what I've experienced.
I also realized that many of things I had been doing and thinking that I wanted to do was actual not something I was interested in at all and had nothing to do with the highest good for all.
Getting in touch with your truest self is so important - otherwise...it's like drifting around with all this potential but doing nothing. This is the extreme of course. But I couldn't believe how much time I had been wasting on things that weren't part of my truth and how quickly that became clear to me once I was in tune with my true self.
The personality is like the emotions, they are meant to be GUIDES not masters. The spirit is the Master. When I was going through my awakening there came a point where I just didn't know what to do anymore and though many part of myself and the guides had ideas...it simply wasn't working. And I just kind of felt like I didn't know what I was.
Finally I got so annoyed and just threw my hands up, "Surely I can be of some help! Surely I have a purpose here!" And that's when my spirit came to me and I regained that connection. Then every time I would feel confused...I would tap into that nameless connection. Instead of listening to the guides or the personality voices. Because, at that point, I needed to be in charge. It was okay to let them guide me but I had to be the one making the decisions.
This is also a way to move past anxiety. Your true self is not anxiety - your true self is more than a feeling and so you won't have to identify with that feeling but simply let it be there and pass through. And this happens naturally when you are identifying with your true self.
I would say there is no set way of discovering your true self. Really it's not hard because you ARE your true self and so you are already being it.
It's kind of like when you're first seeing aura's. You realize that you had been seeing those colors vaguely all of your life but you just didn't pay them any attention. It's similar with this. :]
Much love to all of you!
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
BLISS out!
So, I think I am going to change this blocs name to Being True. It was never about chasing after or trying to find my true self. I AM my true self. But being true is a lifestyle, it is a daily choice that I make one day at a time. Very similar to how "being sober" if you are an alcoholic is a lifestyle choice not some magic fix one chases after. Also, "true" isn't running from me. It's always there for me. It's my choice if I open to who I truly am.
That being said, I will write about the actual subject of this post. I have had a long few couple of months. In a few days I leave for a Bliss Out Retreat with Charis and Leija as the guides. Prep has been crazy! So much I won't go into. I just started my time of the month and so all the stuff going on has been an added stressor. There is a lot of stuff I have nbeen going through ext. So I am a bit worn out. There is still more prep to do. But today I stopped myself and made some hot tea. I grabbed a few books and some other fun stuff and went to the bed. No more worries for the night. It's time to relax, take a deep breath and maybe watch a funny movie.
I am going to a BLISS Out retreat not a stress out retreat. I want this to be fun and easy. Relax into that. And use this new moon to send out intentions of more peace and bliss in my life and an ease that blesses all life.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Forgiveness means to let go
What are you truly afraid of, Elizabeth?
It's not being alone because you know you aren't alone
It's not that you won't ever be loved because you are loved
Is it that someone will love you unconditionally? They will never turn their back on you?
Hmm...But people, even spirits, are fallible. And now, you are the one turning your back.
You are so afraid you are walking away from the one person who will love you without fault
You know this isn't truth, you know it.
You don't want to spend this eternity alone. You don't want your happiness to depend on you. You want to hold onto that love that made you shine from the inside out. It wasn't wrong...that's where you were spot on. There was nothing wrong about this love. It did make me shine and it was beautiful.
But I think I was really off when I felt like nothing could step between us.
Now, I remember. I wanted to believe in two people finding a love that would "break the curse". No longer would we have to separate. A love that could defeat all odds. I wanted to the control.
But the truth is, we are all fallible. I am fallible, he is fallible. We just do the very best we can. There is a divine purpose to our existence and our choices.
Being responsible for one's own happiness and well being. Not waiting for "someone else" to save them. Nope. How can I ever truly be the beloved if I need "someone else" to be? If I want the Beloved and I to be one then I must be willing to accept the Beloved. And realize that the Beloved is source - within us all. I'm not alone, I'm just responsible.
Thank-you for those words, Aymee. Maybe, I am healing from one of the strongest misguided ideas yet. I just wanted someone there beside me. I did and do truly care for Kirene but I put too many other things on the relationship that wasn't healthy. He was my friend and my love but never was he meant to be the one who "fixed all my problems" for me. Never was he supposed to love me always and forever unconditionally. I wanted him to be free and I still want that. I want that for us both.
"Sometimes love means letting go when you only want to hold on tighter."
It can feel suffocating but how could I ever want to use what we had as a crutch from dealing with what I need to deal with? I also need to be able to sit with my loneliness and then just sit with myself. Be with me. So when I am with others, I can truly be with them, too.
I want real, healthy relationships. And I want it to be as much because of the people in my life as it is that I am doing the work with myself.
I am not walking away from love but embracing it. I'm being brave. Yes, it's a risk just like everything in life. But I'm listening to what I perceive to be wisdom and truth.
I ask my higher power for healing. I ask the Beloved for healing and peace that passes the understanding of the human mind.
Thank-you
Elizabeth
It's not being alone because you know you aren't alone
It's not that you won't ever be loved because you are loved
Is it that someone will love you unconditionally? They will never turn their back on you?
Hmm...But people, even spirits, are fallible. And now, you are the one turning your back.
You are so afraid you are walking away from the one person who will love you without fault
You know this isn't truth, you know it.
You don't want to spend this eternity alone. You don't want your happiness to depend on you. You want to hold onto that love that made you shine from the inside out. It wasn't wrong...that's where you were spot on. There was nothing wrong about this love. It did make me shine and it was beautiful.
But I think I was really off when I felt like nothing could step between us.
Now, I remember. I wanted to believe in two people finding a love that would "break the curse". No longer would we have to separate. A love that could defeat all odds. I wanted to the control.
But the truth is, we are all fallible. I am fallible, he is fallible. We just do the very best we can. There is a divine purpose to our existence and our choices.
Being responsible for one's own happiness and well being. Not waiting for "someone else" to save them. Nope. How can I ever truly be the beloved if I need "someone else" to be? If I want the Beloved and I to be one then I must be willing to accept the Beloved. And realize that the Beloved is source - within us all. I'm not alone, I'm just responsible.
Thank-you for those words, Aymee. Maybe, I am healing from one of the strongest misguided ideas yet. I just wanted someone there beside me. I did and do truly care for Kirene but I put too many other things on the relationship that wasn't healthy. He was my friend and my love but never was he meant to be the one who "fixed all my problems" for me. Never was he supposed to love me always and forever unconditionally. I wanted him to be free and I still want that. I want that for us both.
"Sometimes love means letting go when you only want to hold on tighter."
It can feel suffocating but how could I ever want to use what we had as a crutch from dealing with what I need to deal with? I also need to be able to sit with my loneliness and then just sit with myself. Be with me. So when I am with others, I can truly be with them, too.
I want real, healthy relationships. And I want it to be as much because of the people in my life as it is that I am doing the work with myself.
I am not walking away from love but embracing it. I'm being brave. Yes, it's a risk just like everything in life. But I'm listening to what I perceive to be wisdom and truth.
I ask my higher power for healing. I ask the Beloved for healing and peace that passes the understanding of the human mind.
Thank-you
Elizabeth
Serenity
A couple of close people in my life know that I have slipped up and smoked again. But as I said to them, the smoking is only a manifestation of what's been going on within me. It's like a small reminder that, "Hey! I'm still here!" The addiction still needs to be worked on. I am feeling guided to go to Nicotine Anonymous meetings - starting online for right now.
It's been strange for me to put myself out there. I spoke with a dear friend about trusting others and putting your faith in others. She said to me that even if someone is a teacher or mentor of some type - the give and take is still 50/50 and it is never just teacher or student. It is always balanced out between the two, in some form or fashion.
People are fallible and to put one hundred percent faith in them is asking too much. She said what it comes down to is having responsibility for your own well being and happiness. Wow! That, right there, is the own conclusion I had been coming to.
She said when someone else speaks, listen to them with discernment, truly engage. No one has all the answers for me. But I am not alone, I am connected to this wonderful and huge collective consciousness. We do all come from the same spirit. And so when someone else speaks to me they are speaking from that same source.
It can be helpful to connect with the collective consciousness or to even ask for help from one person. I do have the power of choice. Which is why I think this serenity prayer is so important:
SERENITY PRAYER -
God grant Us the serenity,
to accept the things We cannot change,
the courage to change the things We can,
and the wisdom to know the difference
Amen
<3
Elizabeth
It's been strange for me to put myself out there. I spoke with a dear friend about trusting others and putting your faith in others. She said to me that even if someone is a teacher or mentor of some type - the give and take is still 50/50 and it is never just teacher or student. It is always balanced out between the two, in some form or fashion.
People are fallible and to put one hundred percent faith in them is asking too much. She said what it comes down to is having responsibility for your own well being and happiness. Wow! That, right there, is the own conclusion I had been coming to.
She said when someone else speaks, listen to them with discernment, truly engage. No one has all the answers for me. But I am not alone, I am connected to this wonderful and huge collective consciousness. We do all come from the same spirit. And so when someone else speaks to me they are speaking from that same source.
It can be helpful to connect with the collective consciousness or to even ask for help from one person. I do have the power of choice. Which is why I think this serenity prayer is so important:
SERENITY PRAYER -
God grant Us the serenity,
to accept the things We cannot change,
the courage to change the things We can,
and the wisdom to know the difference
Amen
<3
Elizabeth
Friday, October 5, 2012
Instantaneous Healing
Okie dokie, I've made it back to my blog site. :] So I've been coming into contact with this being whom I feel I need to let go of. I got a clear message from a friend that I needed to sever the bond before my trip to California.
I have been working to do that but I thought I'd need to work through "my stuff" to be able to release the bond. This doesn't seem as true now. After a day and a half of my stuff being dredged up, I feel like I am just wasting time. My body is even starting to feel sick again. I don't think I have the wherewithal to do it this way. I simply need to sever the bond.
I didn't want to do that though for multiple reasons: I needed to work through my stuff first [don't need to, I can have healing without doing that & understanding - I know because it's happened before] I still was holding onto the idea of him possibly being a healthy, helpful influence in my life [yeah...right.] And lastly, I simply didn't feel ready to sever the bond. [Well, too bad. It needs to happen.]
The unknown is on the other side of this. But I affirm that I completely and totally accept the unknown and change as long as it is an improvement from my current situation.
I am being guided to hold my peace. That I don't have to dig through every little piece of dirt to get understanding. My higher power can bring all of that together for me. Hold my peace and stay focused on where my life is right now. This is about LETTING GO, not holding on to past behaviors. Because of me dredging it all up and not in turn focusing immediately on healing...My addictive tendencies flared hardcore last night. Luckily I didn't smoke again but I wanted to SO, so badly. I haven't had it this bad since I've stopped. Especially since there was no one smoking around me to trigger it.
I am being asked to learn that when facing my struggles, I can use my new found peace as a strong hold. I can see and face my pain but I truly do not need to dwell, right now. If things get dredged up on their own then that means it's time to face them but if they don't...I'm not sure how beneficial it is. At least, right now, since I'm just recovering from a bout of it.
So tonight I am going to sever the bond and ask for healing in all areas that need it. I am going to ask for understanding in all ways that I need understanding. That I can heal gracefully and miraculously. And then I am going to go to bed.
Right now a lot is going on and I really need to be on my best. It doesn't feel like time to go back into another place of depression. It takes bravery to risk something new. I know I'm afraid but I can find the light. I can gain a new perspective and insight...on relationships...on myself and my core. So here I go! :]
<3 <3 <3
Elizabeth
I have been working to do that but I thought I'd need to work through "my stuff" to be able to release the bond. This doesn't seem as true now. After a day and a half of my stuff being dredged up, I feel like I am just wasting time. My body is even starting to feel sick again. I don't think I have the wherewithal to do it this way. I simply need to sever the bond.
I didn't want to do that though for multiple reasons: I needed to work through my stuff first [don't need to, I can have healing without doing that & understanding - I know because it's happened before] I still was holding onto the idea of him possibly being a healthy, helpful influence in my life [yeah...right.] And lastly, I simply didn't feel ready to sever the bond. [Well, too bad. It needs to happen.]
The unknown is on the other side of this. But I affirm that I completely and totally accept the unknown and change as long as it is an improvement from my current situation.
I am being guided to hold my peace. That I don't have to dig through every little piece of dirt to get understanding. My higher power can bring all of that together for me. Hold my peace and stay focused on where my life is right now. This is about LETTING GO, not holding on to past behaviors. Because of me dredging it all up and not in turn focusing immediately on healing...My addictive tendencies flared hardcore last night. Luckily I didn't smoke again but I wanted to SO, so badly. I haven't had it this bad since I've stopped. Especially since there was no one smoking around me to trigger it.
I am being asked to learn that when facing my struggles, I can use my new found peace as a strong hold. I can see and face my pain but I truly do not need to dwell, right now. If things get dredged up on their own then that means it's time to face them but if they don't...I'm not sure how beneficial it is. At least, right now, since I'm just recovering from a bout of it.
So tonight I am going to sever the bond and ask for healing in all areas that need it. I am going to ask for understanding in all ways that I need understanding. That I can heal gracefully and miraculously. And then I am going to go to bed.
Right now a lot is going on and I really need to be on my best. It doesn't feel like time to go back into another place of depression. It takes bravery to risk something new. I know I'm afraid but I can find the light. I can gain a new perspective and insight...on relationships...on myself and my core. So here I go! :]
<3 <3 <3
Elizabeth
Monday, October 1, 2012
Bully? Baby, you were born this way.
So about the bully stuff
I want to talk about what it's like to be bullied and what it's like to be the bully
I want to talk about what it means to believe in yourself even when you've got life's odds against you.
I don't advocate bullying. We're all in this together. We may be different and it's good to have your own individuality but we can learn to live together and respect one another, even celebrate our differences. Sure, there may be certain things that are and aren't accepted in a society but we can always go about it with love. Sometimes love isn't all flowery or anything but it's not closing yourself off from source. That connection with source is what keeps us sane, it keeps us from going on self destruct mode. We are self destructive and destructive to those around us.
But in the meantime, where we can't control what other people do at the end of the day. We can help put an end to a lot of it but we can't truly control anyone. It's gotta' be a natural thing. We can totally help along the process but the only way to really do that is by focusing on oneself own growth.
So that's why I take on this subject with a personal level.
Let's pretend for just a moment that life is a huge archetypal game. It's a serious game.
When you come into this world you are innocent and you do not doubt who you are, you just are.
For me, my family was accepting of me and bullying wasn't accepted. I learned "right and wrong" from my family but besides that - who I was completely accepted. No doubts in me.
When I came in contact with the bully, there was a new idea implanted in my mind. People who didn't see me as precious or magical. I had to "earn my stripes" and since life depends on perspective, no matter what I did - there would always be someone who didn't like me...who I didn't please. So that's where clicks are made. Those who you feel you "fit in" with - those who will accept you but only if you stay within the ways of the click. I didn't like to fit into a specific click. I just saw people as people. I wanted to know them all. Except for those pariah's or really mean people. I learned that if you didn't carry yourself with confidence and have an air of "being cool" - weakness would be smelled and one would be devoured.
We were not celebrated for our uniqueness, many were mocked. It was "dog eat dog" world. Who was the dominant? Who was the alpha male? But ALL of us felt the pain. The pain of not being enough, of being humiliated and of wondering what are purpose was. Could we still be true and genuinely who we were without hurting others?
Can you stand in beatings without beating back? I didn't. I gave in as we all did and was going to perpetuate the madness. This disconnect and the message, the cruel challenge.
The bully is an archetype The bully tries to overtake you. The bully tells you that you don't matter. But the bully lives in you and in me and sometimes the bully is expressed through you and I. Sometimes we laugh at others pain and humiliation. In this archetypal game - we have all the archetype's.
As said above, I wish to live in a world where the bully is no longer needed. There are things we can do to reach this new level but it all begins with ourselves. So here we are. The bully is at it again.
Do you choose to believe in yourself? Can you find that person who is flawless within?
The bully asks us the question. The bully is willing to do anything to you to make that answer be no. And sometimes you can't escape the bully. The bully is the manifestation of your fears and of your self hatred.
Do you deserve to live? Do you matter? Does anyone - even yourself...care for you?
Sometimes you just try to survive...Not just the bully outside but the one inside your head and heart.
And I didn't survive gloriously. Sometimes I believed the bully. Sometimes I became the bully. Sometimes I ran and hid from the bully. I made mistakes and no, I couldn't always handle it nor did I always stand up for myself. None of this is what truly matters, though.
In this life we get knocked down. It's simply the act of getting back up, brushing off the humiliation and trying at another day. This is strength. Only pride needs for you to be perfect. It is what keeps you from forgiving yourself and what makes you always strive to be the best. But what is pride if not fear? For pride is stipulation. You have to live up to a certain expectation to accept yourself. This is not truth. Love is where confidence comes from. You are free to be who you are - even if you slip up and fall. For you know that even in failures, there is a gain. You learn greatly from your failures and you also learn an important humbleness. We are all weak at some points, there is a child that will always live in us. It is the determination to keep trying that shows strength and helps build confidence. Continue to believe in yourself. Continue to root for yourself and what you believe in.
You matter
You deserve your own love
It is okay to be free
You are truly your very best when you are free and genuinely being true to yourself
You are a marvelous child of God
Blossom, break through the cocoon. It is struggle but it is making your stronger. For some reason in this life we all have something we struggle with.
Life asks us the question, "Do you TRULY believe in this? I can show you all the proof you need to not believe it." And it can. It can show you a reality where you fears are real.
But why? Why when there is just as much proof if you are willing to look that you are worthwhile?
This is where it comes down to one simple fact: You have the choice. No bully, circumstance or struggle can take that away from you.
You can choose what you believe. About yourself and about life. Choose what matters to you. Follow your own truth. Listen to who you truly are. You are perfect the way you are.
You can always, always choose love and freedom. You can always choose that you have simply had a enough.
I pulled myself out of public school and started homeschooling and going to church school. To some it could be running away but it's what I wanted to do and I don't regret it. Maybe you can speak out - refuse to let it be okay to be bullied. You don't have to do this alone. Don't worry about whether other's call you a coward. It take courage to speak out. It takes courage to stand up for yourself and what you believe in. Whether you get help or whether you do it on your own.
It doesn't matter if others say you are cowardly, weird or stupid - too sensitive. You decide what your boundaries are. YOU decide what you can and can't deal with. YOU decide what you think is okay to do or not and then you do what is best for you. It doesn't matter if other people can accept it. But I promise you this, when you are genuine and you do your very best to stand up for what you believe in. Especially if you are able to keep from blaming others but see that this all about YOU being true to YOURSELF there will be other people backing you up. You won't be in this alone. And even if you have to walk it alone for a little while - if you are doing what is best for yourself, you will feel love and respect for yourself. And guess who is the only person you will live with all of your life? Yourself. Not that bully.
Love you all, beautiful babies,
Elizabeth
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJalg6PcML8&feature=related
Perfect song <3 <3 <3
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied or teasedRejoice and love yourself today'Cause baby, you were born this way
Read more: LADY GAGA - BORN THIS WAY LYRICS
I want to talk about what it's like to be bullied and what it's like to be the bully
I want to talk about what it means to believe in yourself even when you've got life's odds against you.
I don't advocate bullying. We're all in this together. We may be different and it's good to have your own individuality but we can learn to live together and respect one another, even celebrate our differences. Sure, there may be certain things that are and aren't accepted in a society but we can always go about it with love. Sometimes love isn't all flowery or anything but it's not closing yourself off from source. That connection with source is what keeps us sane, it keeps us from going on self destruct mode. We are self destructive and destructive to those around us.
But in the meantime, where we can't control what other people do at the end of the day. We can help put an end to a lot of it but we can't truly control anyone. It's gotta' be a natural thing. We can totally help along the process but the only way to really do that is by focusing on oneself own growth.
So that's why I take on this subject with a personal level.
Let's pretend for just a moment that life is a huge archetypal game. It's a serious game.
When you come into this world you are innocent and you do not doubt who you are, you just are.
For me, my family was accepting of me and bullying wasn't accepted. I learned "right and wrong" from my family but besides that - who I was completely accepted. No doubts in me.
When I came in contact with the bully, there was a new idea implanted in my mind. People who didn't see me as precious or magical. I had to "earn my stripes" and since life depends on perspective, no matter what I did - there would always be someone who didn't like me...who I didn't please. So that's where clicks are made. Those who you feel you "fit in" with - those who will accept you but only if you stay within the ways of the click. I didn't like to fit into a specific click. I just saw people as people. I wanted to know them all. Except for those pariah's or really mean people. I learned that if you didn't carry yourself with confidence and have an air of "being cool" - weakness would be smelled and one would be devoured.
We were not celebrated for our uniqueness, many were mocked. It was "dog eat dog" world. Who was the dominant? Who was the alpha male? But ALL of us felt the pain. The pain of not being enough, of being humiliated and of wondering what are purpose was. Could we still be true and genuinely who we were without hurting others?
Can you stand in beatings without beating back? I didn't. I gave in as we all did and was going to perpetuate the madness. This disconnect and the message, the cruel challenge.
The bully is an archetype The bully tries to overtake you. The bully tells you that you don't matter. But the bully lives in you and in me and sometimes the bully is expressed through you and I. Sometimes we laugh at others pain and humiliation. In this archetypal game - we have all the archetype's.
As said above, I wish to live in a world where the bully is no longer needed. There are things we can do to reach this new level but it all begins with ourselves. So here we are. The bully is at it again.
Do you choose to believe in yourself? Can you find that person who is flawless within?
The bully asks us the question. The bully is willing to do anything to you to make that answer be no. And sometimes you can't escape the bully. The bully is the manifestation of your fears and of your self hatred.
Do you deserve to live? Do you matter? Does anyone - even yourself...care for you?
Sometimes you just try to survive...Not just the bully outside but the one inside your head and heart.
And I didn't survive gloriously. Sometimes I believed the bully. Sometimes I became the bully. Sometimes I ran and hid from the bully. I made mistakes and no, I couldn't always handle it nor did I always stand up for myself. None of this is what truly matters, though.
In this life we get knocked down. It's simply the act of getting back up, brushing off the humiliation and trying at another day. This is strength. Only pride needs for you to be perfect. It is what keeps you from forgiving yourself and what makes you always strive to be the best. But what is pride if not fear? For pride is stipulation. You have to live up to a certain expectation to accept yourself. This is not truth. Love is where confidence comes from. You are free to be who you are - even if you slip up and fall. For you know that even in failures, there is a gain. You learn greatly from your failures and you also learn an important humbleness. We are all weak at some points, there is a child that will always live in us. It is the determination to keep trying that shows strength and helps build confidence. Continue to believe in yourself. Continue to root for yourself and what you believe in.
You matter
You deserve your own love
It is okay to be free
You are truly your very best when you are free and genuinely being true to yourself
You are a marvelous child of God
Blossom, break through the cocoon. It is struggle but it is making your stronger. For some reason in this life we all have something we struggle with.
Life asks us the question, "Do you TRULY believe in this? I can show you all the proof you need to not believe it." And it can. It can show you a reality where you fears are real.
But why? Why when there is just as much proof if you are willing to look that you are worthwhile?
This is where it comes down to one simple fact: You have the choice. No bully, circumstance or struggle can take that away from you.
You can choose what you believe. About yourself and about life. Choose what matters to you. Follow your own truth. Listen to who you truly are. You are perfect the way you are.
You can always, always choose love and freedom. You can always choose that you have simply had a enough.
I pulled myself out of public school and started homeschooling and going to church school. To some it could be running away but it's what I wanted to do and I don't regret it. Maybe you can speak out - refuse to let it be okay to be bullied. You don't have to do this alone. Don't worry about whether other's call you a coward. It take courage to speak out. It takes courage to stand up for yourself and what you believe in. Whether you get help or whether you do it on your own.
It doesn't matter if others say you are cowardly, weird or stupid - too sensitive. You decide what your boundaries are. YOU decide what you can and can't deal with. YOU decide what you think is okay to do or not and then you do what is best for you. It doesn't matter if other people can accept it. But I promise you this, when you are genuine and you do your very best to stand up for what you believe in. Especially if you are able to keep from blaming others but see that this all about YOU being true to YOURSELF there will be other people backing you up. You won't be in this alone. And even if you have to walk it alone for a little while - if you are doing what is best for yourself, you will feel love and respect for yourself. And guess who is the only person you will live with all of your life? Yourself. Not that bully.
Love you all, beautiful babies,
Elizabeth
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJalg6PcML8&feature=related
Perfect song <3 <3 <3
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied or teasedRejoice and love yourself today'Cause baby, you were born this way
Read more: LADY GAGA - BORN THIS WAY LYRICS
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