Instantaneous Healing

Okie dokie, I've made it back to my blog site. :] So I've been coming into contact with this being whom I feel I need to let go of. I got a clear message from a friend that I needed to sever the bond before my trip to California.
I have been working to do that but I thought I'd need to work through "my stuff" to be able to release the bond. This doesn't seem as true now. After a day and a half of my stuff being dredged up, I feel like I am just wasting time. My body is even starting to feel sick again. I don't think I have the wherewithal to do it this way. I simply need to sever the bond.
I didn't want to do that though for multiple reasons: I needed to work through my stuff first [don't need to, I can have healing without doing that & understanding - I know because it's happened before] I still was holding onto the idea of him possibly being a healthy, helpful influence in my life [yeah...right.] And lastly, I simply didn't feel ready to sever the bond. [Well, too bad. It needs to happen.]
The unknown is on the other side of this. But I affirm that I completely and totally accept the unknown and change as long as it is an improvement from my current situation. 

I am being guided to hold my peace. That I don't have to dig through every little piece of dirt to get understanding. My higher power can bring all of that together for me. Hold my peace and stay focused on where my life is right now. This is about LETTING GO, not holding on to past behaviors. Because of me dredging it all up and not in turn focusing immediately on healing...My addictive tendencies flared hardcore last night. Luckily I didn't smoke again but I wanted to SO, so badly. I haven't had it this bad since I've stopped. Especially since there was no one smoking around me to trigger it.
I am being asked to learn that when facing my struggles, I can use my new found peace as a strong hold. I can see and face my pain but I truly do not need to dwell, right now. If things get dredged up on their own then that means it's time to face them but if they don't...I'm not sure how beneficial it is. At least, right now, since I'm just recovering from a bout of it.
So tonight I am going to sever the bond and ask for healing in all areas that need it. I am going to ask for understanding in all ways that I need understanding. That I can heal gracefully and miraculously. And then I am going to go to bed.
Right now a lot is going on and I really need to be on my best. It doesn't feel like time to go back into another place of depression. It takes bravery to risk something new. I know I'm afraid but I can find the light. I can gain a new perspective and insight...on relationships...on myself and my core. So here I go! :]

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Elizabeth