"I don't know...if you know who you are, until you lose who you are."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNoKguSdy4Y
This song by Taylor Swift ~ I am really resonating with. Listen to the song but not just the song, the words she says in the beginning and at the very end. I see the "trouble" as a way of being more than just a man...It was an idea that was living out, inside of me.
The man I was in love with, I do believe that I truly benefited from and shared a pure love with. I also think there was a flip side to it. Whether it was truly him or not, it didn't matter, I believed it was. And at the time there was a darker part of me taking root. It was the "trouble" I was getting into. And truth be told, "I knew you were trouble the moment you walked in." Couldn't be more true for the situation I was in. I knew it was trouble. But I was enchanted by him and by "the trouble".
And when it was all over, I was like Taylor Swift...waking up to wreckage everywhere and no one in sight. "The worst part wasn't losing him but losing myself." And I did, I lost myself in a way I never had before. "I don't know if I'm ever going to feel that way again and I don't know if I should." It's true, I was enchanted by the way I felt...On the other side of it, though, I find myself saying the same thing, "I don't know if I should." And yet, I don't regret what happened because I'm not sure I would know who I truly am if I didn't lose who I was.
Just a quick thought ~
Love!
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