Where I Stood

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gcXX1RTAA0s

Sometimes it's important to grieve. "I don't know, I don't know who I am without you." It's true, there are a few people who left my life that those very words apply. I didn't know who I was without them..."All I know, is that I should." And all I knew when walking away was that I should.

I want to write a little poem dedicated to someone I love very much.

I'm Proud of You

You were there
For my first breath
I cried in your embrace and you wiped away the tears
All the while, over the years
I grew to think on my own
You weren't perfect, anymore
I could see things that I didn't want from you
I could see your faults and I didn't want them to be there
We fought and yelled and we said things we didn't mean
I thought I knew better and it made me mad that I did
But when I close my eyes, I feel your warmth
I see your strength and your sacrifice
It's as if I couldn't see you at all
In truth, I find you brave and beautiful
In truth, beyond all of our flaws - there is a star
Your heart
is like the moon in the night sky
Shining in the darkness
Sometimes you made mistakes, big mistakes
And I can only hope that I will know an unconditional love
that you have shared with me and my big mistakes
"God lives in our hearts," something I learned from you
There were times when fear got the best of you
It also got the best of me
I was always looking for more in you
It wasn't until the day that I saw the spectacular person you were, faults and all, that I could see your divinity.
You are my mirror
I see the little efforts you put forth, everyday
I saw the strength in your eyes when you put your faith in me
I will not blame you for what you didn't do
But thank-you  for all that you did do
Because, I am proud of you. I love you so very much.
And from now on, I would like to take responsibility for my own well being - I do not have to begrudging towards those who did not give all that I wished for.
There does seem to be a wellspring of life within me and I never lack
I see your heart and your efforts
Thank-you, for I do not take it for granted

Anyway, I am releasing a relationship demand. It is no longer healthy for me to continue with it and I wish to be true to who I am. I don't really want to but in a way I do. I like being around my friend and I cherish this person. Yet, I don't like my boundaries being overstepped...I really don't like that. I will trust my higher power. It's a risk and it may be painful. My goal is to lead a healthier life, for all involved. If you knew you were aiding an unhealthy behavior, would you stick around?