Serenity

I just published "hard lessons". But I wrote it a few weeks ago when I'd just broken up with my ex.
After spending some time to myself and reaching out to an old, helpful friend of mine...I realized I had failed to see the issue that resides with me. I had stopped keeping my side of the street clean. It makes perfect sense. I needed that time to feel purely hurt and angry by what happened. But it became time for me to recognize where I needed healing and major change in my life.
I've entered AA and this time I am able to move passed the first step. I am able to admit to being powerless over drugs and alcohol.
For the first time in a very long time...I feel moments of serenity. I also feel my other emotions that I've been numb to for a while. But the serenity is not something I've felt so deeply in my core since 2011 and a little there after.
I'm stripped down to the bare bones of who I am and because of that...there is only me and my higher power...I can't trick or lie to myself.