Sensitive

I've wondered why I have felt so different from others all my life. Luckily, at this point in my journey I have met MANY people like me...From all sorts of walks of life.
I believe I'm a natural born witch. I can perceive things which not all people can in a spiritual nature. My ability to experience what I did in 2011 lends me to believe that and other experiences I've had and continue to have to this day. I experience things both externally such as seeing ghosts or faeries, whatever you want to call them, having deeply synchronistic experiences and literally being able to read someone's energy also heal them from pain.
Internally it's more complicated...I have a strong intuition, ability to hear and communicate with Spirit, manifest both positive and negative experiences, process and understand high level psychology studies,  see universal patterns in almost all aspects of life.
I am sensitive, I perceive a lot. I believe I am empathic and soak up the energies of others. I need rejuvenation time.
I have wanted to ignore these things about myself after 2011 because I didn't want to see the truth. I just posted about comfort and Coping and honestly it put me do far outside of my comfort zone that I am forever changed. My human psychology was almost cracked horribly by it but luckily I able to make it out singed and of course I was able to carry with me the goods of that experience. The gold, the deeper understanding of reality which paves the way for a deeper level of experiencing life...less asleep.
It's not recommended to do what I did. Honestly, I was young and naive and while I knew I had special abilities I didn't know the appropriate ways to use them. I also didn't know how VERY real it was. I was still trying to convince myself of its realness.
I can't say I can give you a definite explanation of what all of this is.
One can easily chalk it up to mental illness. I have even preferred that at times because then it would all just be shit in my head. But I can't unsee what I've see and I can't unknow what I now know.
One could easily say it's narcissistic behavior to believe I have these abilities. But I don't think we have truly figured out what is going on. There is still to much unexplained.
My story, my reality, my ability to cope with all of this is to see them as deeper perceptions of reality...similar to having good eyesight, taste, touch and hearing. Or like being someone who is really talented at art. We all have the ability, some are naturally born with more of an inclination towards it.
2011 has simply taught me that I have to be careful with it. I'm really not sure even what that means right now. It's a hard place to be because a part of me wants to understand more and another part of me is terrified.
But part "who I am" [the story I have for bring me] is someone who embraces all of who she is...Even if it's scary.
I just need the right place and time for it...The right kind of environment. I pray to my higher power that, that be revealed to me.