Create Responsibly

For as long as I can remember I've been honing my creativity...it's always been my passion and later in life I realized it was also a true talent of mine.
I'm talented creatively in more than one way...and my charismatic personality sets me up perfectly to walk the walk of a nature born artist.
My whole life I've had a knack at sensing things before they happen...intuition/sixth sense in a way along with other spiritual gifts. Suppressed or accepted, these gifts are always there.
It has served me well in moving through the darkness ahead of me. I had once stepped out to become an actress and I believe I truly could've made something with that career. But, fear held me back. There were times that I have regretted that choice but looking back now, I was only 12. I had no idea yet that I was also a natural born addict and the struggles that were ahead of me. I tend to believe that I was protected by my angels. Just as I have always been...protected in 2011 from spiritual warfare and protected in 2015 from drug abuse and bad relationships.
I'm just now truly healing...at the age of 24. I'm grateful for a chance to rehab and that I gave my mind, body and soul time to heal...that I didn't push myself like a good work horse. Society is so centered around pumping out results for the consumer that it's inhuman. We've lost the pause...the stillness of mind body and soul. The connection to our spiritual man.
I love hard work and it's part of the tools in my spiritual toolkit that helped save me. But everything done in moderation. We are so easily 'holic about things. Workaholic alcoholic, ect.
The void I need to fill isn't found thru those means.

The path I chose didn't bolster my ego. It was full acceptance that I needed precious TIME to heal. My most valuable asset. I am coming out now and seeing the world thru new eyes.

I don't want my passions to be about making the money or forgetting my purpose to bolster my ego. It needs to have sound purpose and reason. I want to create responsibly....like my favorite artist Kerli.
My talents are true...but they were not born of me...they are a responsibility to this world. This hurting world...I want to be a part of the solution, not the problem. I pray I will have the courage, strength and wisdom to do that.