Light is on its way

I was thinking about the time I went to Imagine Festival with Tristan and the experiences I had. Not all of them were pleasant since I taking drugs that I'd never tried before.
This was at a time that I was so depressed and struggling to not be suicidal. I remember that my life flashed before my eyes as I realized that taking random drugs could quite possibly kill me. I saw my brothers Zach's fate mirroring my own. I saw how my life could end tragically like his...it wasn't impossible and I was starting to accept a fate like that because of my depression.
It was a time where I was totally spiritually bankrupt. I couldn't hear my HP anymore and that's because I didn't want to...everytime I listened my body filled with terrible anxiety and my cells literally screamed, "Stop living this way!! Before it's too late!!" That's not what I wanted to hear. I didn't want to change yet...not if I had to sacrifice my fixes.
But listening to the EDM music...I heard my HP's voice reaching me...bringing me back into the light...I had a spiritual experience - remembered the truth of the light and that this was my one life...it didn't HAVE to end tragically...that was a choice. I could allow my HP to help me...I just had to be willing.
My HP came to me in a multitude of ways...mostly through art since I wasn't listening to friends and family anymore. Games, music...my favorite artist. I'm lucky that I have the ability to hear and notice the messages of my higher power...it literally saved my life.