Creationist~

I came here to create. No more limits. I am free.
I'm not chained down by duality or right or wrong. The two are one in the same, they are as illusions at father time.
At the end of the day it all ends at the same place but today is what you have. What will I do with it? What will I create? Isn't that what free will is here? We can create. Create thoughts, feelings, actions, buildings. We're all Creationists in our own way.
Love is my destination and freedom is my dream. I want to create these things into this life.

My brother and I spoke of dreams and following them. "Remember when we were little and we used to say, 'Why don't older people who have more freedom then us just follow their dreams?' - 'Well, Elizabeth, they're scared.' And we would both smile mischievously, 'We're not not going to be afraid.' But what happened? We got older and realized the harder truths of life and realized just WHY a person might be afraid or even feel it was illogical to try and follow their dreams. And that's the truth about dreams. They ARE hard to follow and it can be scary as hell to have the courage to even do them. But the soul will always, always call you to do it. You want to know why? It doesn't see the obstacles we see and even when it does see it just says, "So what? I can do that. I'm a God being, not a puny twig." You're soul see's you for who you are. You're fucking Titan, Sam."
I honestly anything can be achieved if you put the effort towards it so I want to ask myself what it is in my soul that I want to create here and I want to GO FOR IT. Even if I make a mistake that is hard to forget. I only have this life to live. I don't care about what happens after death, right now. I'm HERE, right now. Not dead. So while I'm still alive I want to live my life to it's fullest with all my soul, with every inch of my soul.

I want to live my dreams, I want to be a Creationist. Yes, I can. I feel like these are the wings I've been waiting to feel sprouting from my back. I don't feel the urge to judge others, to judge myself. This is SUCH a freeing realization. Live here, now. There is no right or wrong path. There is just YOU and what YOU do with your life. And so that's where I ask my own questions, "What would I like to do with my life?" Or on a more simple scale, "What do I want to do with right now? Do with today?" Sometimes I will just live in the moment, sometimes I will build things up and sometimes combine the two. That's what I want to be able to use my thoughts and my soul in unison. But, I am happy with my life, right now. I will keep shaping it, molding it like a beautiful creation. Because my life is my greatest masterpiece. Oh, how exciting!

We are living f-ing art. GO FORTH CREATIONISTS!!! <3

I am very happy right now and having a "Homage to my Inner Child" week because I will be turning 18 on the    25th! It's a time of growing up and taking on responsibilities as a young adult and I want to pay respects to my past but I also want to remember there will always be an inner child within me that needs nourishment through fun and creativity and to never take life too seriously. Because after all, this life is a "BIG ADVENTURE!" And as a little girl, that was my dream. To go on the biggest adventures I could comprehend. So that is what I will do. And it's also what I'm going to do for my birthday party.

I'm not sure if I will still be making a new blog. I probably will just continue using this one because I believe that's why I created this one in the first place. I'm not sure why I don't always use it but either way I will try to do that more.

---I'd like to take some more time to see where my soul is calling me. But I do feel so much more fed with the way my life has changed. My heart is healing from years of hurt. I am happier, I am healthier. Thank the God that may be for this unconquerable soul. And I am truly thankful to Papa God, Mama God. And all the brothers and sisters that go along with that and ALL the friends that have helped me. I smile and tear up just at the thought. And I send my love to all those that have passed the veil and now live in another realm.
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I feel I am truly trying to dedicate my life to True Love. True fulfillment and freedom. But thank-you to my higher self and my guides for showing me that there is more to life then just 'being true' and while I 'chase true' I don't want to forget to just stop and Be Who I Am.
Ain't that what it's all about? :]

-Lizabeth