What to do?

It's been a while since I've posted but I really felt it was time to sit down and write. I am actually going through something that has me on edge, right now. But really, I feel like it is a culmination of many things that have happened with me, recently.
It's like it's all piling up to that breaking over point. Recently, some good friends have left my life - even a relative who I would have never thought would leave. But I would say that I processed it fairly well.
Yet, this one incident has sent that belief on the fringe. I can't say that I am totally alone because I am well aware of the fact that I have some really wonderful and caring people in my life.

How can I deal with this situation appropriately? I've learned that sometimes it's important just to act but in this one I am afraid to do that. Someone I cared about made me feel attacked and abused without a care of my well being. The way she acted, scares me. I heard the thoughts in my head, "You're not worth it." I can't stand to think on it too much. To think about how others see me or to be treated that way.
I want to step into her shoes and think of why and how I would act like she did. I want to understand and then understand what I would do if I realized from my own perspective what I had done. I want to be true to myself.
I don't want to speak my mind to her because I am afraid of something happening like it did the other day. I am physically sick now from the stress and the pain it triggered was almost too much for me to take. I don't know why it has triggered what it has but I am unable to make myself vulnerable again. And speaking my truth means that she may lash out at me. I hurt just thinking about it. I don't want to be lashed out at anymore.

But guess what, I am opening up to my truth - to the healing that may or may not come.

I will recline for the night, now. I'd rather not say anymore because I don't want to use this space to complain .
I am grateful even through this fear.
Elizabeth

I read this quote, "Life has no meaning. Each of us has meaning and bring it to life. It is a waste to be asking the question when you are the answer." ~Joseph Campbell
Hmm....