"The greatest sign of intelligence is being willing to listen."
Today my lesson was to truly listen. Listen to my own doubts, why are they there? What are they telling me? Listen to other people, especially when I don't agree. Why do they feel this way, why don't I agree?
Sometimes all a person needs is to be heard and truly understood. I know I've needed it. Sometimes I get bogged down by the thought of being chained to one way of living but I feel like what I've hooked into a is a much more 'panoramic' way of seeing things. Yes, I have my own personal views and perspectives but I am willing to believe everyone has their own truths from their own pieces of the bigger picture. I can learn from everyone in some sort of way.
I'm feeling much better than I have the passed few days. Different words floating through my mind,
"I believe he wrote many different books."
"You matter so much to so many people."
"Boundaries are important, it's not being mean, it being true to yourself."
I'm learning once again that this is truly what I want. I want to keep striving forward. Keep positive habits, to the smallest and most basic things. My chores, my morning and evening rituals and everything that goes between.
That is partially the reason why I made myself sit down and write in my blog tonight, I know I need keep myself working on myself day by day. This is very important to me to do this. Life has become so much more difficult then it did before but somehow I know that is a good sign.
Because all the same, I cherish things on a different level, I'm more humble and I am willing to work for things. I want to make people happy and I also find it important to take care of myself and others. Love is opening my heart back open and the sadness I am facing. Everyday, I work to change perspectives and let fears go.
But most importantly. Passion. I've begun to live my life more passionately and it truly is feeling like life. Not like there is some empty void in the middle of everything I am and I do. Now I know that desire for MORE is the path I am now stumbling along. It's not going to be easy and that's for sure but it also won't be impossible. It'll be meaningful. It is beautiful.
I must remember to trust my heart when it is telling me something and not to totally panic. But even then, I still have ways of grounding myself and sometimes I think it is good to just have a nice cry.
I love my higher power. I love God. I love Mother Earth and who I really am. I love myself as a whole and I love the human experience. I love the other beings that I met along the way. All of these people I can say our my friends and my family. There are still times though when I feel the religious indoctrination creeping up on me and I really can't feel my higher power for who he or she is. I want to be free of this but I do feel I want be taken seriously at times. Not even by myself. I spent a very long time disapproving of it and even though it's nothing close to what it was for me before, I still have trouble with it.
I remember saying if I ever went back into it I would put all my heart and soul into not like half the people who barely seem to care about it. Or this is how I saw it. Now I see that they are most likely afraid to truly get into it. But I want to live a fuller life and listening is the first key to learning. I really relate to why that would indicate intelligence. Because I full and well know there are still so many things for me to learn and for me to master.
Forever and always,
I love you - Eli
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