Dreams

My dreams have been a big help to me lately! Tonight's dreams helped me face some thing's honestly of which I haven't been truly honest with myself about, lately. I would say it here but it's of a more personal matter that may not be appropriate to publish onto the internet. But also within the dream I was shown my own confidence. There was this kid who was a guy and for some reason I was relating to this character as myself but I was just watching him. He'd been bullied before but he was a very kind-hearted guy. Yet, at some point he comes into a lot of money and his whole personality changes. When he steps out of his suuped up new car he is Tom Cruise...LMAO! And then he is himself again walking to this school feeling really awesome. While he is in the cafeteria this girl who was his friend tries to say something to him but he says, "I don't want you to talk to me. You're a female and a female would only talk to me because she's interested in me. I'm not interested in you." Then his best friend beside him says, "Don't talk to her like that!" So he looks at his friend and says, "You're no longer my friend now." And his friend says, "I don't want to be with this new personality you've gotten." You can tell this upsets him and the girl he'd just insulted says, "You can't ever be the person you're trying to be." So his response is, "I just wanted to be cool for one day so I wouldn't be bullied." And then she shook her head, "You can't be anything but yourself." That's when I suddenly had a body as myself and I drew with sharpie on the cafeteria thing "I'm not perfect either, I've also not been myself at times but -something something something- We're forgiven." And he ends up reading it. So then he stands next to me and the next thing you know someone is insulting him. I almost get mad but then I tell him, "Don't listen to what they have to say. You know the beautiful person you are inside. Believe in who you really are and love yourself then those words will be meaningless to you." This is also something I needed to hear. I know who I am and even if other people don't like certain things about me I can't change the person that I am and I don't want to. I will respect other people and who they are but I won't disrespect myself in the process. I am who I am and I believe in that person.

Elizabeth