2011 - year in review

(This is review jumps from place to place, I may add more to it as more important things come up to me)

The 11th grade ended.
I had an extremely spiritual experience that completely transformed me. It started with the exploration of inner council and bdsm.
Once I was regrounded, I had found a new relationship with God, my higher power, and I had also discovered that I was a Child of God. Because of this I claimed myself as a Christian, once again. I went to churches and I made new friends in relations to it. I had beautiful experiences during praise and worship and retreats. I made new friends through other experiences, such as Laurie and my dad. Then she introduced me to a new spiritual teacher who could also hear voices and I began going to her class on the ascended masters teachings.
I worked at the American Village as a junior interpreter. I made new friends there and had an amazing experience. Noel and Billy loved me and I think they wanted me to work there. They said I had real talent.
I grew farther away from old friends such as Kaitlyn, Carla and even Emily. Emily and I are still friends but we are much farther apart then we have been in years and soon she will be moving to Cali with her boyfriend Carlos. It was for the best that we got some distant so it won’t hurt as bad once we are separate.
I ended my romantic relationship with Kirene because of the fact that there was danger, no communication and we live in two different worlds. I felt that at least for now it was best if we went two separate paths. I still consider myself his friend and I really haven’t stopped being in love with him but slowly and surely I am working to let him go so that he and I can be free within our hearts. He is also someone that I see as very sacred to my life, my path and my heart. I believe I will always hold him this dear to me and do not plan to change that for anything or anyone.
I’ve read many books and teachings such as the Return to Love. I have found much joy and courage in the movie series The Neverending Story and I’ve also found an inspiring band called Stratovarius.
I grew closer to Skye again and I also recently became friend with  Taylor. Because of Pat’s class I began going to Unity, a church in Birmingham and there is a new minister there that I really love named Mark.
My cat Socks passed away and I adopted a kitty during the bad tornadoes that I named Kiara and my brother named Boots. So she is named KB. Then later on I adopted the cat which I named Sarah and Sam calls Lynx. Sometimes I will call her Evie.    
Libby also passed away and so we adopted her bird Mimi and took a lot of her stuff as well as the Woodly Road house stuff.
I began to learn Korean and I rekindled my relationship with my mom and dad more then I have in years. I have done much personal work on myself and I actually enjoy doing chores now. I work to live a healthy life and to love myself while following my own path and truth and respecting others paths and truths.
I turned 18 this year and I am a senior. I am much more emotional now and at times I feel years younger. I am working on heart healing and I believe I have let go a lot of the anger that I used to have buried deep in my heart. I am still cleansing.
This entire year was effected by the spiritual even that happened in February. After that, I wasn’t the same and life wasn’t the same. I struggled through many hard truths but also was shown so much beauty that I had not even known.
I found inner peace, I found happiness and I found love. I discovered that my truth was love. The core of it was love. And I believed that my shadow self was the parts of me that I wouldn’t accept. I believed that the ego was a fear based idea of myself which sprouted from the idea of separation and the unhealthy energy was blocked energy but I don’t believe in evil or good, heaven or hell, or any other form of duality as being true. I know that it is real, just as time is real but I also believe that at the root, time is merely an illusion that is a tool to teach.
This year has been a year of enlightenment, work, healing and divine love. Fears I thought I’d never get passed were dismantled in moments and I was revealed my own truth which seemed so ever elusive to me. I have fallen away from my own path and truth many times during the year but I do have a destination in mind which is what is important.
I also have decided that freedom is the best path towards my own truth and self. To find inner freedom I must be willing to surrender which is something I actually did learn and do for the first time in years this year.
I went through a lot of anguish and faced some things I thought I would never have to face. I definitely had many moments where I felt totally powerless and that there was nothing that I could do. I found out that sometimes it’s good to get to the place so that one can release and just let go, for once.
This is year has been the year that my dreams came true. The Princess woke back up, I went through the butterfly transformation and am still currently going through it.
I became a believer. And now when I ask myself of what, I think, “Of anything. Anything beside the nothingness that was in my heart.” I believe and I do believe in Love but even in the moments that I feel that I fear I am believing in something and I now am aware of that. There isn’t that empty void within my heart anymore. I am learning to coexist as I have always wanted to with all aspects of myself and I have gained much confidence from this.
I also saw my own strength in a new light. I was thrown into the worst place I’d ever been and I really feared there was no hope at times for me but this beautiful flame in my heart, my little light, was unable to be ‘put out’. I understand now, that it never will be, because that IS me at the core and depths of who I am. I’m the little light shining.
I danced much more this year and learned some belly dancing, I also began to do yoga and meditations frequently. My future for the next year is still not set in stone but I have also learned to live in the moment and that if you truly are following your heart and your own truth this is all you need to guide you forward. So, for now, that is what I am doing and have been doing most of the year. I created more artwork this year and was given a ton of new stuff. I decided that I would not call myself, “We” anymore and that having an inner council made me feel too much like a bunch of separate beings in one body. I feel more or less after listening to the voices that really the different aspects of a person is not much different then the different aspects of two different people who create a whole of the human race, a whole of the universe. Because I also have begun to believe in Unity. That we are truly One, like waves on the ocean. We each have our own twist of uniqueness but our spirit comes from the same place.
This year I learned how privacy was not as nearly important as I thought it had been before considering this was only something even known about on my world and the way my world lived.
I have had more fun this years, as well. I have let go of a lot of my pushing away from of my childish side. I had an amazingly childish birthday party with my friends and family and I also have gone on adventures with family. I have played with my dolls and I have been childishly creative.
I met my uncle Ed on a trip up to Florida for the first time in many, many years and it was a great visit.
I became a vegetarian and also I stopped smoking! I at the beginning of the year cold turkey and never started again. I definitely know God helped me through it. I have been working to live a healthier life in all aspects of the word that applies to me and my spirit.
Two friends from New York, John and Amanda, roomed with us for a while and then moved to Birmingham. We gave them my bed so now I am sleeping in my rooms with her and that has made us even closer. John and Amanda have been great friends to have but plan to move back to New York as soon as they can. And right before the year ended I got my first job working at Subway with my brother and some friends. I am still planning to get my license, so maybe I will succeed before the year ends! And if not then that is what will be on my New Years Resolution.