Hawk

This morning when I woke up I saw a hawk. It was standing on the power lines outside of my house. Usually I would see a cardinal there and one time I saw a blue bird but today it was the hawk. The hawk has always been a strong animal for me and my dad. For me it was a signal of protection but the hawk also has keen eyesight and so for me also means to see things for what they really are.
When I saw it the first time, I knew it was trying to show me something. It's never stopped on the wires before but was usually seen from afar. This time it was directly trying to get my attention. Most of the time I'll look too into it and forget to just be in awe of this beautiful creature. Also, I don't always trust my own interpretations and so I'll ask someone else like my dad what they might think it means but I was being shown that maybe I should listen to my heart.
The hawk flew away but came back! And sat there for about half an hour which is the longest the hawk has ever stayed around for me. I felt love for the animal and it almost felt as though I was just being showed that I am loved in return, to trust my own voice in my heart. It almost felt like a love proclamation from life, itself. And that my voice is heard. Those birds are so majestic. It's really amazing to see them.
I also saw this bird last night when I was meditating. It's eye just looking at me as if it was perched on my arm and looking straight at me. I don't want to look too into things but just see the message I am being given. Not get too caught up in the fact that it's being given to me. I read somewhere that "ascension is a process, not an event." I think this is the truth. My only problem is talking about this sort of stuff. For a lot of people it's all just a bunch of new age-y bs. Before I went through the stuff I did, I didn't even agree with it. I mean, sure, I had my own 'out there' views but I would've been the last person to agree. I thought they didn't see the bigger picture. Until, I went through the experience I did a few months ago and I realized it was the truth. And most definitely MY truth. It was only until a little while ago that I realized so many people actually did and have for while believe and seemed to have discovered what I discovered. I do want to enjoy myself during this period, though.
A journey is worth going on without a little bit of dancing, you know? I just have to figure how to let myself go. And that's probably my biggest thing. Always trying not just doing. Just being. Just be, without trying to change it or do anything differently. It's strange how that surrender can release you almost instantaneously.
The hawk visited me today and I hope I will see things for what they really are, as well. Truthfully and from the heart.
Life is magical, whether we see it or not. There's so much to be in awe about and so much fun. I never want to lose my passion.
-Eli