I am in control of my thoughts.

My thoughts are not who I am. They are a tool that I can use but they can become unhealthy if not used correctly or truthfully. The truth is, I am in control of my thoughts and not the other way around. It's all about focus. Obviously, since we think millions of thoughts at once, we can't always filter out every bad thought. But it IS my choice on what I focus on and let take seed and grow in my mind and heart. Focus is very important if I ever want to get anywhere in my life.
The truth for me is that love is all the really matters to me or has any real truth for me. It is what is true and that which is true is the only thing eternal. That is the basis of my focus and everything else is my tool, nothing more. To believe that I am my thoughts puts me at a serious disadvantage and is equal to banging my head against a brick wall. I'm not going to get anywhere and my skull will eventually crack. For me to remember that I am in control of my thoughts means that I will spend less time trying to 'figure out' my darkness. All I need to know about my darkness is that it's not my truth and for me there is no truth to it. In essence, it is a lie, just as believing that I am my thoughts is a lie. It's pointless to endlessly examine the dark when trying to enter the light. So I simply release these emotions and thoughts to go and be open to a new perspective. Beyond that, I put my focus in other things that are more beneficial to me. I know it all starts with the mind because the mind is where we make choices and in this reality that's where it really matters. It's our base of action and if I can't relinquish my desire to focus on unhealthy things then I'll never move forward but endlessly bang my head against the brick wall. And we all know how that turns out.
I've been having trouble sleeping the passed few nights but I do not want to take sleeping pills because that is making me dependent on something that isn't natural. I am also in control of my sleep. I have the ability to change my habits and go to bed at a decent hour and stop pretending I'm not going to sleep at night. I have the choice to keep my body healthy and in balance. I am going to focus now and find my rest for the night.
Goodnight, sleep tight
all my love and light,
E l i z a b e t h