Today I gave. I gave to my mother, to myself and to my mother Earth. And it seems that now I as I am reconnecting with myself I am turning a new page with my past and what may have lead to my discoveries! Last night I spoke my truth with mom and it got bad at first but I stayed focus on the destination of peace and love and so did she. We actually had a really awesome break through and my throat chakra is once again, I'm sure, very thankful for me speaking my truth. I had been having trouble reading a book that was lending to me but I have not lately since I have remembered that I must always in turn come back to my truth and with this I've been given a whole new perspective of on it. Which has been wonderful!
But today I want to make it a point to myself that I truly have not been as lost as I believed I was before. Yes, many things were still veiled to me which I even knew at that time but it was I who willing pressed forward to discover just what it was and with this I say, "It was not just a simple event that changed my heart but a journey that has been progressing till this point." For the longest time I knew that I was being held back by my doubts and that a day would come when 'the princess would wake up from her deep slumber' and I would remember what I had once forgotten. In fact, I now see just how much I had been telling myself through my subconscious. So today I will recite many things I had written from my past and I will remember that each step is just another phase of the journey but even in our darkest moments not all is lost and that it was that very ache in my heart that made me strive to discover the truth about myself.
- "Freedom begins when you get out of the cage you've built yourself in." An sentence from a poem I wrote.
- "OH GOD HELP ME! I HAVE BRAINS! IM NOT ANOTHER ZOMBIE! You know there something wrong when you find yourself saying this and not the other way around. Society as of right now is…SCREWED.
"I could remember the days when I tried to conform.
A teacher would call on me and I would act like I didn’t know the answer
Or act like I didn’t care.
I would even, when called on, read like an idiot because I would be too strange if I, get this, KNEW HOW TO READ
What kind of message does that send to you.
Kids our being brainwashed to be IDIOTS.
Knowledge is a gift and should be cherished,
God I mean,
I am even still struggling slightly because after a while of all that pretending to be a moron
I actually started to become one.
Now I wish I could have accepted the wonderful knowledge that life was trying to give me
Kids need to learn to humble themselves again and learn to take NOTHING for granted and stop being so selfish.
"You know that whatever it is out there against our kind, now, is the time they have decided to really strike.
It seems to be working for the most part too.
Except for the few people who have broken free and see the shit for how the shit really is
"I believe there is a fake who in the magical side plays as god and is mistaken as it by the normal folk.
And the people who know the real him don’t have the power to do anything about it
He is powerful no doubt, but not all powerful
How could anyone seriously think that the other side is so simple?
"Just plain black and white,
Good and evil
If its not here?
Of course there will be secretary, trickery, and lies after lies
The dark forces believe that they are the strongest and they keep knowledge from us so we cant grow any stronger then them
They believe they are stronger then the one they ‘took the reigns’ from.
I call it unity
Because as it is its own being and we are our own being
It is also a part of it as we are of everyone else
Maybe it is the creature
Love…
But I think the best description for it in my head is the Unity
It has not been overthrown,
For it is a peaceful creature and does not go about fighting the way that its
‘over throwers’ have
It is also very wise
And know what it must do to regain the balance
A time of change must and will come very soon
Get ready world and everyone else.
Your truly about to have the TIME OF YOUR LIFE =)
Yes I did just say that…
I shall continue to keep trying to find that balance as everyone else must try to find.
Oh and I hate how some people associate gender with the Unity
Like call it, ’him’ or call it ’her’
No,
It is ALL of what we are both male and female
It is neither just one
Like one extreme or the other
It is the balance between the both
Neither female nor male
But both at the same time
An aspect we must find in ourselves.
Try to find that balance between your feminine and masculine aspects of yourself
Embrace it all and don’t tune either one in too much
And no it DOES not matter what gender you are,
Embrace both sides equally.
And I’m not telling you to go drag some days
It’s about your soul,
"Appearances change and die, don’t worry of those things
They don’t define who you are or what your soul is
You’ll reincarnate in some other body or never get another one
The body you are in is probably not your first and in no way can define you
The actual beautiful spirit being you are is what defines you
Anyway
If you are a female there is person who is your make counterpart
Your twin flame
Same if you’re a male
If you find them together you kind find a true balance
And you will be in perfect harmony with the Unity
Let us all join together and push aside our differences to see that we all care for each
Let us all join together to fight in unison for our survival
We are as different as we are the same
When you bleed I bleed
And when I am forced to take your life with my hands and you die a part of me dies too
So never think that I would cause pain on you without repercussions
I cry for the tears that fall from your eyes
Because now more then ever
I feel more as one with you all and Love then I ever have
The Unity"
[Yes, I know I curse a lot in here but I had a bad sailor's mouth and in my journal's I wanted to be able to be me without feeling I had to restrain myself so my anger and annoyance does bleed through. I've always had a strong personality and it's only been till recently that a lot of my anger has died down. But I am still impressed by what I was saying back then. I remember I'd only just begun to understand what I was saying but felt it deep within my core and now it's something that I feel I've come into more understanding about.]
- "The answer is within, Galderine will show me what I need to know,
He is here to help me see the hidden.
Like the spirit ‘Satan’ said about the secret we hold inside,
Just waiting to be found
I know now, what I need to figure out this is within.
I got my answer"
And now I would like to share a little excerpt from a story I began writing a while ago and I find it so interesting that I had chosen to write about it! I will, hopefully, finish it one day.
Ah, So This is LOVE at it’s Fullest.
I smile at them. It is all I can think to do at the moment. I have everything I want, there is no need for words or gestures. We all feel the LOVE, it swirls around us, swims though us, enhances something about us. And with this powerful LOVE, there is a unity between all five of us. Simply amazing. I will not ever be able to think of another thing that can ever compare to this moment, or moments to come. We’ve made it, survived through the tragedy, horrific and unrelentless. But we had been prepared and in the end it unified us all. Now here we are on the brink of ascension. But before I transition. There is still one thing I want to leave Earth with. Because I know life can get pretty insane and despair is not hard to find along the journey to discovering yourself. I want to leave a little piece of myself here, so that others will find some sort of comfort and hope when fear seems the only constant in their life. I want to make one last contribution to this world. A planet I think I will always cherish to the depths of my heart. A little bit of my heart will always be here, so let what I am about to tell you empower you. See through the eyes of another , I want to show you my life for a little while…
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I am happy to reflect but too much endless reflection can be dangerous and it's happened to me before so now I will continue on with my day in hopes that I can continue forward with my life and my growth. All my love and light to you all! Nemaste!
-Eli
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